caution

[1230 PM]

So, currently, I am sitting under a tree to work on my paper due next week, and the wind is blowing like crazy.

There's a rectangular section of grass roped off with caution tape.

It rattles in the slightest breeze.

The wind, as it gets stronger, pushes the tape over and literally almost hits me in the face.

The first time this occurred, it nearly scared me to death, and I felt extremely stupid.

And now, an ambulance drives by, full lights, sirens... the whole she-bang.

This cannot be good.

I am in love with Autumn, down here in Tuscaloosa. It's just BEAUTIFUL.

Leaves fluttering around the sidewalk by a bluster of wind, the perfect temperature, the atmosphere; everything seems to be just right in the world. At least, in the moment where I am currently. (God, he's gorgeous!) Excuse me for the distraction, but there are 3 beautiful men playing Frisbee on the quad, right near my tree. (And, call me crazy, but I swear the tree just squeaked!!!)

[105 PM]

Bees scare me.

Especially when the hover around me and my head...

:/

Maybe I'll only work from 2-4 instead of 2-430.

That will give me a little extra time to work on my essay...

I hope.

[230 PM]

I am soooooooo tired.

I could use a nap.

Stupid English class...

[440 PM]

Dang squirrels, they are sooo distracting!!! I added like, 2 sentences to my essay within the past 20 minutes because I keep watching the squirrels. BUT THEY'RE LITERALLY 5 FEET AWAY FROM ME, HOW CAN YOU NOT WATCH THEIR EVERY MOVE AND ADMIRE THEIR CUTENESS?!

[700 PM]

I got my first essay back from my English professor.

B.

Not bad, Seeing how I didn't include my works cited page.

A few little mistakes here and there, but all in all, decent.

Enough for a B.

Enough for a me.

And now, I am starving, since I haven't eaten in practically 8 hours, and I almost have no more food left in the cabinets.

Thank Lady Gaga for my meal plan sometimes.

( ^ ^ ^ ^ : Not in a literal sense, although I wish...)

Not tooooo much to do tonight.

Work a little on my essay...

Work on my Astronomy Lab...

Maybe some HallBall tonight if I'm not too drowsy.

I miss him.

He sent me pictures today.

:)

They made me happy.

It's almost like he was trying.

Trying again.

Trying for us.

Trying for me.

Trying at connecting us...

Trying at communication.

Trying for everything we once had.

Trying to say that he actually wants me in his life, in his world, in his heart.

[950 PM]

It's nice to confess the truth to someone.

:)

True Blood is seriously a strange program.

I wish I had something a little more interesting to talk about...

what I did for love

All I want is for him to come back.

Nothing is right anymore.

He taught me so much, I can't explain.

I miss him.

I miss us.

I miss home.

Home, I always felt, was with him.

Happiness was with him.

Smiles.

Laughter.

Trust.

Honesty.

Love.

I don't understand it.

I was lost, confused then... and admittedly still am.

All because of that stupid mistake.

But I was scared...

I didn't know what to do.

I needed time.

He needed time.

We needed time.

But I took too long.

Now I'm too late.

He found someone else.

He says he still loves me, still wants me.

But, his new girl provides so much more for him.

He deserves her.

Or, at least what she has to offer.

She doesn't know what he's like.

What he's been through.

She knows nothing about him.

I don't know how they say they love each other.

I don't know how he even does, when he does not.

I'd do anything.

Except leave school.

And that is something I cannot do.

It would be stupid on my part.

I love him.

I am in love.

I need him.

I want him.

I learned.

Forgive.

I'll try.

I want this back; I want us back.

The us, the we, the you and me.

And, now I leave you bloggers with these beautiful lyrics this morning.

-Original:AChorusLine

--GLEE Version:LeaMichele:RachelBerry

Kiss today goodbye,

The sweetness and the sorrow.

Wish me luck, the same to you.

But I can't forget

What I did for love.

What I did for love.

Look my eyes are dry.

The gift was ours to borrow.

It's as if we always knew,

And I won't forget

What I did for love.

What I did for love.

Gone,

Love was never gone.

As we travel on,

Love's what we'll remember.

Kiss today goodbye,

And point me t'ward tomorrow.

Oh, we did what we had to do.

Oh, won't forget, can't regret

What I did for love.

What I did for love.

What I did for love.

Oh, love is never gone.

As we travel on,

Love's what we'll remember.

Kiss today goodbye,

And point me t'ward tomorrow.

Oh, we did what we had to do.

Oh, won't forget, can't regret

What I did for love.

What I did for love.

What I did for love.