apologies, rants, him, and an appropriate song

I'm sorry I've been so boring lately.

I've noticed that my views aren't as frequent as they once were.

It saddens me that

A) I might have disappointed/let-down my readers by not providing entertainment.

B) I have had not much happen to me recently for me to share. It's been so anticlimactic...

I wish it wasn't, to be honest.

But, I guess what goes up must come down.

And if my life was one huge climax, I'd probably go crazy and you guys would get sick of me ranting on here all of the time.

I miss writing.

I miss writing my poetry.

I just haven't had the willpower or inspiration.

I'm hoping something comes up soon that leads me to write and share with the world my mind.

I sit here, now, alone, and wonder if I will be this way the rest of my life.

I know I have family.

I know I have friends.

But, I'm speaking romantically.

Will I ever find someone else that I connect with as well as him?

I'll be honest... I have tried.

Nothing works.

I compare everyone to him...

It's not fair to them, nor myself.

But, I can't help it.

I'm just hoping fruition comes to him through me; sooner or later.

In the meantime... I'll just go through life, day by day, week after week, and just live.

And be.

Even if I turn robotic, and nonrespondent.

I dunno if I will be "myself"... but I will be.

And until he's ready...

I'll be here and waiting.

With this song on repeat...