freezing in fall

I sit out on the quad tonight and stare at the world.

All I hear are the buses driving by and the song that I never want to end.

I'll post lyrics at the end of this post.

The weight of feet rushing by, pushing bodies to evening classes.

Bicycle chains clinking.

Denny Chimes... well... chiming, alerting campus that it is now 7 PM.

The smell of fresh cut grass rises to my nose. (I love it.)

Streetlights, stoplights, lampposts shine their lights to guide the path to warmth.

It's supposedly 67 degrees here, it feels colder; I'm freezing.

I wish he was here to keep me warm.

Hold me, hold my hands. Gaze up at the ever cloudless, sunless sky.

I look stupid here laying on a towel alone.

People walk by and look at me, knowing what I'm thinking, knowing what I'm feeling.

Shiver.

Shiver.

Shiver.

The cold seeps through my sweatshirt and jeans, they're not enough to protect my skin completely.

My hands and fingers feel frozen.

I just want him here.

I just need him here.

I'll die without him.

I never knew how much I need and wanted and yearned for him until now.

I love him so much, I want to cry...

I'll add more later, my laptop screams for energy.

How

Maroon5

Ohhh

I have been searching for your touch
Unlike any touch I've ever known
And I never thought about you much
Til I'm broken down and all alone, ohhh

Though I don't understand the meaning of love
I do not mind if I die trying, ohhh
Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I'm asking for your help
I am going through hell
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice
You cut out all the noise
And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now
I'd kill if I could take you back

But how?
But how?

I can feel it in my guts
What's going on with him now
And don't patronise me with lies
I'm a man, be a woman now, ohhh

I have been bind by the shackles of love
And I don't mind if I die tied up, ohhh
Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I'm asking for your help
I am going through hell
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice
You cut out all the noise
And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now
I'd kill if I could take you back

But how?
But how?
But how?
But how?

Ohh yeh
Why must we be so ugly
And please do not think hell of me
Why does the one you love
Become the one who makes you want to cry
Why?
Why?
Why?

(And how?
How?)

But I don't understand the meaning of love
I do not mind if I die trying
I do not mind if I die trying
I do not mind if I die trying