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So, I think I'm officially letting him go.

For the gazillionth time.

But, this time, I hope it's the last.

He's not coming back to me.

It's not how it's supposed to be.

But, it's how it is now.

I'm learning to accept that.

I'm tired of wasting my time.

I'm tired of waiting for a phone call that I know will never come.

And thanks to Maroon5, I'm getting through this okay.

Their music has gotten me through this week, if not longer.

Leighton is with Julianna... and I'm finally giving up on him.

They'll go off, get married, and live happily ever after.

I'll find someone. Sooner or later.

I'll be happy with another person.

Eventually.

I'll find love again.

In the mean time, though...I need to focus on my studies.

This first half-semester I have kind of let slip through my fingers, not realizing how quickly time really does fly. I need to fix my grades, and FAST. I'll take and do as much extra credit as possible. Hopefully I don't overwhelm myself too much. Even though I'm getting to that point already.

I also need to jump back into chorus somehow. I'm soooooooooo behind on rehearsals and music, it's so not cool. I just hope that I haven't missed too much to not be involved anymore. I'm gonna start looking up our pieces on YouTube so that I can catch up that way.

I'm half-expecting another long week ahead.
I would like to add that I am so very thankful for my true friends that are there for me through anything and everything, no matter how stupid, silly, or dramatic I turn my situations. I love them all so much, and they all know who they are. I can't wait to see you all again, whenever the time approaches.

I don't know if I should even bother going to bed tonight.

I'm gonna have to wake up in liiiiiiiike... 2 hours.

Maybe another movie/all-nighter like I did earlier this week.

Let's see... I could watch Dear John again.

Or maybe I could watch something I actually own.

Bloggers, you'll probably find out later.

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745 AM

So, yes. I was correct.

A long day ahead, as planned.

As well as a long night.

Ohh, joy.

I never watched a movie, like I said I was going to.

My roomie stayed up with me for most of the night, just talking and coming up with insane scenarios about random shit whilst I had M5 on repeat in my headphones and my fingers clicking away through Mahjong.

Time to begin sprucing myself up for this incredulous everlasting day.